Dear instructors, does the inner being of an aspirant who has not yet entered the path but is still shall we say wasting his time put struggles or trials in the life of that person intentionally to give them the final motivation they need? In other words, can certain trials in our lives whether internal/psychological or even external be intentionally one's inner being or is all trial just of the ego? Also regarding self-observation, how does a beginner maintain the willpower to stay in self-observation? Is there a mantra? Also, when I try to meditate I realize just how weak my mind is and as soon as I try to meditate egos try to distract me, they try to bring my awareness to strange things that I can't explain and I can't control my mind at all. I have tried to meditate on something as I am falling asleep and I just end up asleep. What is the solution to this? Thank you.