I am very sensitive to caffeine and I have quit coffee over a month ago after drinking one cup a day for over a decade. Most of my withdrawal symptoms like brain fog, fatigue, intermittent sleep, and headaches are gone. My problem is now with anhedonia and apathy. I really feel emotionally dead and I am indifferent to what happens to me or the things around me.
Before I quit, when I would remember my being and pray to my Devine Mother I would feel a overwhelming loving energy that would warm my heart and energize my consciousness to the point I would get tears of joy. I do not feel any of that anymore.
Without that energizing emotional feed back, self remembering and mindfulness feel almost impossible. It is very easy to 'fall asleep' and I never feel as 'awake' as I did before.
My concentration practices like focusing on the candle flame also feels different. My perception is clear but it feels like my consciousness isnt able to fully 'grip' on to the flame. My awareness of the things around me suffers the same thing. My ability to understand concepts or comprehend information also seems to be hindered in some way. I get that deer staring into the headlights feeling a lot. My memory is really bad.
I've double the amount of pranayama and runes exercises. Is there anything else you can recommend? Or do I just wait this out and pray the caffeine wasnt masking a more serious issue from past mistakes.
Before I quit, when I would remember my being and pray to my Devine Mother I would feel a overwhelming loving energy that would warm my heart and energize my consciousness to the point I would get tears of joy. I do not feel any of that anymore.
Without that energizing emotional feed back, self remembering and mindfulness feel almost impossible. It is very easy to 'fall asleep' and I never feel as 'awake' as I did before.
My concentration practices like focusing on the candle flame also feels different. My perception is clear but it feels like my consciousness isnt able to fully 'grip' on to the flame. My awareness of the things around me suffers the same thing. My ability to understand concepts or comprehend information also seems to be hindered in some way. I get that deer staring into the headlights feeling a lot. My memory is really bad.
I've double the amount of pranayama and runes exercises. Is there anything else you can recommend? Or do I just wait this out and pray the caffeine wasnt masking a more serious issue from past mistakes.