A few months ago, I felt so many revelations/ epiphanies. I kept thinking deeper and deeper into my problems and eventually felt like I could forgive the other person through what I believe are truths of our situations. I had never been happier. My circumstances were the same but my heart felt different. Is this comprehension? Is it still supposed to feel like thinking or is it more like a mystical experience? Sometimes I still feel my body react nervously when I feel that I might see this person so I relate this to not having annihilated the egos related to this completely. Which I understand is through much prayer to our Divine Mother?
I would really appreciate clarification on the experience of meditation. I don’t know if I have already experienced this before. It truly felt like God was giving me wisdom in those days. Where I could see the perspective of the other person. I could only cry and pray for those weeks. I felt the most serenity I had ever felt in this lifetime. I feel that now maybe I truly love them. But I hope it isn’t “good” egos or more subjectivity replacing what was going on before.
I understand much of the work to liberation is through meditation so I want to make sure I’m actually experiencing it.
Thank you for all you do to help!
I would really appreciate clarification on the experience of meditation. I don’t know if I have already experienced this before. It truly felt like God was giving me wisdom in those days. Where I could see the perspective of the other person. I could only cry and pray for those weeks. I felt the most serenity I had ever felt in this lifetime. I feel that now maybe I truly love them. But I hope it isn’t “good” egos or more subjectivity replacing what was going on before.
I understand much of the work to liberation is through meditation so I want to make sure I’m actually experiencing it.
Thank you for all you do to help!
Accepted Answer
I had never been happier. My circumstances were the same but my heart felt different. Is this comprehension?
This indicates that you have freed some of your consciousness from a defect. The liberation happens through comprehension and the fact that you have felt different / not tempted in the same situation underlines it.
Is it still supposed to feel like thinking or is it more like a mystical experience?
It can be different, depending on how heavy the comprehended defect is, etc. When you have a different reaction in the same circumstances, this is the best indicator for comprehension.
Sometimes I still feel my body react nervously when I feel that I might see this person so I relate this to not having annihilated the egos related to this completely. Which I understand is through much prayer to our Divine Mother?
You might have comprehended a bit, but not all of your trapped consciousness, keep working with your Divine Mother.
I understand much of the work to liberation is through meditation so I want to make sure I’m actually experiencing it.
Don't look for sensations of special feelings as indicators, as they might be -as you have said - "good" egos, etc. Learn to enter a meditative state and then comprehend yourself, as if you are a stranger, detach from your common perspective of being "yourself". Only from this view you can avoid being fooled by your own egos.
Accepted Answer
I had never been happier. My circumstances were the same but my heart felt different. Is this comprehension?
This indicates that you have freed some of your consciousness from a defect. The liberation happens through comprehension and the fact that you have felt different / not tempted in the same situation underlines it.
Is it still supposed to feel like thinking or is it more like a mystical experience?
It can be different, depending on how heavy the comprehended defect is, etc. When you have a different reaction in the same circumstances, this is the best indicator for comprehension.
Sometimes I still feel my body react nervously when I feel that I might see this person so I relate this to not having annihilated the egos related to this completely. Which I understand is through much prayer to our Divine Mother?
You might have comprehended a bit, but not all of your trapped consciousness, keep working with your Divine Mother.
I understand much of the work to liberation is through meditation so I want to make sure I’m actually experiencing it.
Don't look for sensations of special feelings as indicators, as they might be -as you have said - "good" egos, etc. Learn to enter a meditative state and then comprehend yourself, as if you are a stranger, detach from your common perspective of being "yourself". Only from this view you can avoid being fooled by your own egos.
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